This photo, “Sometimes He answers prayers with a storm,” has been on my mind lately.
We are in a storm. Within the storm, our world and lives are changing.
I chose these words because this has been my experience. After publishing a few poems and having five children, my entire life changed in a day. It was the storm of storms. At the time I could not imagine the end from the beginning. All I knew was the list of things I was losing in a day. I lost a marriage, a new home, a father for my children, income, everything in a one day life-altering storm of events.
Just like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz, all I could do was hang on while the world spun around us.
When the storm began, I sat on the side of the road in a VW Van with my babies and turned it all over to my Heaven Father.
When the storm was over, I found myself living by the sea near my childhood home, just as I had always wanted. I had the love of my life and he had adopted my children. We had a sixth child who survived a life threatening illness, All was well (messy and chaotic but happy). We were safe in a place that became a haven for us and for our extended family. My prayers were answered.
God’s plans for me are always better than my own. But Sometimes while he was rearranging my life to make space for more blessings, the unknown was challenging. It took all of my faith for me to wait patiently, like a child waiting for Christmas morning. Patience is a virtue on my “To Do” list.
Two things bring me peace when storms are raging.
We may not always understand why we have the challenges we do or why some prayers seem to go unanswered, but the scriptures tell us:
“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”
New Testament, Romans 8:28
We can pray and to ask the Lord for comfort and to help us understand what is happening to us or for help with decision. He is waiting to talk to us, even if it is just a feeling, a thought, or warmth in our heart. (Learn how to Hear Him here)
We are not alone in the storm. Hang on. I believe you can find your personal growth and happy ending even if the middle is messy.
Last week I asked how you were doing and what was on your Pandemic Blessing Card. Here are some of the beautiful things you shared with me.
“I firmly believe God has a purpose for all of us and equip us with talents and resources throughout our lives we need to fulfil that purpose. I’m not saying that in vain because I was born with a born defect that means I am bound to a wheelchair for life. It would be easy to blame whatever but why would I survive for nearly 50 years if doctors bluntly told my mom there was no medical way for me to survive past 48 hours. So whenever circumstances threaten to overwhelm me (as it does with all humans) I try and remember that I have an undisclosed purpose.”
“…I have spent the last 4 months in a rehab facility following a really bad fall. With this quarantine I have not been able to see my family and I truly miss the hugs from my son…I am reminded of how much I have to be thankful for even midst this horrible time. I had forgotten. But not now. Thank you!
- My leg will heal.
- I will walk normally again.
- I will give my son the biggest and best hug ever.
- I have made many new friends.
- I have been able to read as much as I like.
- I have been shown once more that God always opens a window when he closes a door.
- I realize that others are so much worse off than I am.
- And so much more.
- My faith has been restored.”
“Some of us were able to travel to see friends who have a lodge away from internet and WiFi and cell service. We ate good food, went hiking and enjoyed nature.”
I would love to hear how you find faith or if it is a struggle. I would also love to hear ways you, #HearHim during our storm.